Good Morning Cyberspace,
It’s now August. It feels weird this year. It’s normally a mix of emotions - excitement of the anticipation with a new crew, and the sad feeling that the summer coming to a close. It has been said that for a teacher, August is like one long Sunday.
Typically, about now I’d be checking my schedule obsessively for updates and class lists. I’d be prepping my welcome back and back to school materials. I’ve probably been in and out a few times with treats for the office staff and tech department. And I would be planning time when I'd be going in to begin setting up.
But not this year. It’s surreal. I’m pretty sure it really hasn’t set in yet. I have this sense of hopefulness that I will find a job and rejoin the ranks of the fully employed, yet there is this overwhelming sense of anxiety that accompanies it. Partly for the unknown, partly for the financial aspects of it. And a huge part is the crushing feeling of how much benefits are going to cost me without the assistance of an employer. I can get by for a few months. But sadly, I’ve finally found myself financially back where I was at the beginning of my teaching career. When I still hung on to my college bartending job. My rent was a quarter of what it is now, - which I split - and that was before I paid (mostly charged) grad school classes - for a master’s and an additional certification.
When I think of all the time and energy and money I poured out over the years for teaching it makes me sick! The only thing that keeps me from wishing I didn’t attempt this ten years ago is the amazing people (kids included) I met over the past four years. (New administration excluded)
Back to the job hunt…
Wish me luck!
Sincerely,
Another frustrated ex-teacher
But not this year. It’s surreal. I’m pretty sure it really hasn’t set in yet. I have this sense of hopefulness that I will find a job and rejoin the ranks of the fully employed, yet there is this overwhelming sense of anxiety that accompanies it. Partly for the unknown, partly for the financial aspects of it. And a huge part is the crushing feeling of how much benefits are going to cost me without the assistance of an employer. I can get by for a few months. But sadly, I’ve finally found myself financially back where I was at the beginning of my teaching career. When I still hung on to my college bartending job. My rent was a quarter of what it is now, - which I split - and that was before I paid (mostly charged) grad school classes - for a master’s and an additional certification.
When I think of all the time and energy and money I poured out over the years for teaching it makes me sick! The only thing that keeps me from wishing I didn’t attempt this ten years ago is the amazing people (kids included) I met over the past four years. (New administration excluded)
Back to the job hunt…
Wish me luck!
Sincerely,
Another frustrated ex-teacher
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